As I walk up the sidewalk to the entry of the nursing home where my younger sister resides, I take a deep breath. It’s a heart-breaking pilgrimage I’ve been making a few times a week, and I brace myself as I go into the lobby. Smiling, I cheerily greet the folks I’ve come to know over the past five years. I head for her room where I find her in bed, unable to speak or move of her own volition, the result of a massive brain haemorrhage eleven years ago.

As I sit beside her, engaged in a one-sided conversation, I am struck by the fact that she has absolutely no autonomy.Thinking back to the night that changed her life forever, I wonder how she could have possibly known that she had lived the last day that she would ever be able to exercise her free will.

This idea sticks with me long after I leave her bedside, say my goodbyes to the people sitting in their wheelchairs in the hallway and the lobby, and heave a sigh as I step out into the open air. I breathe in deeply and the cool air fills my lungs. But more than that I am poignantly aware of my precious autonomy. Turning the key in the ignition of my car, I realize the sheer power of exercising my will in that simple act. At that moment, I decide that I will make an effort to be keenly aware that I am exercising my will even in the most miniscule action or decision I make.

“I do this of my own free will.” I say the words aloud as I engage in any activity however small it may be. It improves my attitude when I must perform any tedious, but necessary, task. It raises my awareness of good and bad habits when I make choices. It’s an empowering mantra when I’m doing something that I truly love, and it gives me a special appreciation for my ability and freedom to pursue it.

I utter the words dozens of times each day, becoming more pointedly aware of my power, my role, in the direction of my life. Every time I do, I am reminded of those who can no longer exert their free will, and I am grateful for the privilege and responsibility. Today could be the last day that I have that opportunity. What choices am I going to make to live my life to the fullest on my own terms? What about you? How will you exert your free will today?

Live Spry!